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Okay, my last post was unfair so I guess I should clarify.
I have been offered a position with an environmental consulting company. Normal people would be pleased but this job is 100% field work in rural Alberta. I feel backed into a corner about accepting it but everytime I think about accepting it, I'm swallowed by despair. I didn't feel like telling people about it but wanted people to know that I might say yes to the position and suddenly drop off the face of the globe. Upon rereading it, it sounds like I'm contemplating suicide, but that's kind of how it feels to me right now.
This position would leave me out of touch with the world and away from life for an unpredictable period of time and at the end of my 1 year sentence, I would end up with a position in a company that does remediation work. It's exactly the position that I was trying to stay away from when I first started my job hunt.
I've had a rough couple days and didn't want to talk about it because frankly, I'm just not interested in what people have to say anymore.
Hope you are all relieved and exasperated with me again instead of worried. I wish you joy of it. Yes, this post is unfair too but at least now you know what to think.
I have been offered a position with an environmental consulting company. Normal people would be pleased but this job is 100% field work in rural Alberta. I feel backed into a corner about accepting it but everytime I think about accepting it, I'm swallowed by despair. I didn't feel like telling people about it but wanted people to know that I might say yes to the position and suddenly drop off the face of the globe. Upon rereading it, it sounds like I'm contemplating suicide, but that's kind of how it feels to me right now.
This position would leave me out of touch with the world and away from life for an unpredictable period of time and at the end of my 1 year sentence, I would end up with a position in a company that does remediation work. It's exactly the position that I was trying to stay away from when I first started my job hunt.
I've had a rough couple days and didn't want to talk about it because frankly, I'm just not interested in what people have to say anymore.
Hope you are all relieved and exasperated with me again instead of worried. I wish you joy of it. Yes, this post is unfair too but at least now you know what to think.
